The weekend has come and gone again in a blur. A happy blur, but a blur all the same. Lot’s of yummy food, snuggles, a little bit of retail therapy and plenty of log fires intermingled in to give me a warm fuzzy feeling when I look back over the last few days. I was even treated to half an hour of solitude by the fire this afternoon because driving for long stints tends to wipe me out. And in the peace and quiet I snoozed .Yes, that’s right, I had a Sunday afternoon nap and it was glorious.
The nap gave me that extra oomph I needed to see through all the Sunday evening jobs with Mr C; washing the little bears’ hair, making supper, making sure homework and uniform is sorted. I had some work-work to sort out for tomorrow so as soon as the little bears were in bed I grabbed to laptop to get it done and out of the way.
The nap gave me something else though. A little bit of thinking-power. When you’re really tired it’s hard to take a step back and think through decisions. Or is that just me? Please say it’s not just me! I turn unto a bit of an ostrich and try and convince myself it’ll all sort itself out. It drives Mr C nuts. This evening my head has been clear as… Something really clear.
I wrote a little while ago about saying goodbye to blogging. The encouragement I received after I clicked that ‘publish’ button was overwhelming and I recognised that I wasn’t alone in how I felt. I had a couple of days off but soon I was chomping at the bit to get back onto my laptop and hammer new posts. But then last Monday I came home so tired I felt like it was Friday. I sat down at my kitchen table and, almost absent-mindedly, wrote about being a tired working mother.
And I havn’t written since. I’ve spent plenty of time getting grumpy that I don’t have time to make the blog look the way I want. I’ve stared at the screen a fair bit too. Friends, that’s not fun. It’s a bit weird really. I don’t mind be different, unique or even quirky. But I don’t want to be the weird blogging girl that stares at her screen instead of actually blogging.
So. Enough is enough of this malarkey. Action is needed. And this afternoon, after the power-nap, I realised what action is needed.
What I need to do is not blog. I need to intentionally choose to not try and get posts written and published. I need a blogging break that lasts more than a few days. I’m just about to go into week seven of the school term – five more days and the teaching profession, along with all the kids, get a week off. There’s a lot to fit in in those five days. And straight after work on Friday we’re making our way down to South Wales.
This week is as good a time as any to step back and not be a blogger.
So this ramble is just to let you know that I havn’t done a disappearing act. This is NOT goodbye to blogging. This is so that I can keep blogging, and stay in love with doing it. I know my stats will drop and I know that I’ll be tempted to ‘just write a quick post’. In hindsight I should have had a proper break when I considered packing the whole blog in. So I’m going to be strict with myself to just ‘be’ this week. Or maybe give myself a bit of time to tinker with the technical side of blogging that bamboozles me. If you come over to Learning to be Mrs C regularly, please do stick around, I won’t be gone for long.
I WILL keep posting on my facebook page so if you havn’t already, please pop over. It would be lovely to see you there.
Have a super week everyone!
Mrs C x